Thursday, 25 June 2009

Finally ready to say it...

I found out last week that I had another miscarriage.

When I had that first appointment with my new doctor, because of the symptoms I'd described to him, he 'suspected' I'd had a miscarriage based on my history. He wanted blood tests immediately. I put off the blood tests for almost a week (6 days) hoping that they wouldn't be able to tell me either way as I wasn't sure I would be able to cope with it emotionally.

Anyway, they did an overnight test on one of the 5 vials and I got the results last Thursday.
Surprisingly, I'm okay emotionally, but physically I'm a mess. I'm having to get about 13 hours of sleep a day and it's taking everything I have to get up and get to work. I've got another appointment with the doctor tomorrow to discuss the results of the other blood tests and to sort out some kind of plan for the PCOS.

I have this awful feeling that because of where I am at the moment physically, he'll send me to the hospital. I know he's going to want more blood and I'm convinced he'll also order another ultrasound, even though I have one scheduled on the 1st of July.

I had a crappy day on Friday having to tell work the reasons I have a million and one appointments, and sorting out the time off work for them etc. So I went to see the kids on Sunday to cheer me up.

Since Sunday was also Fathers Day, we visited both sets of parents, too.

Oh, and in other news...This is exciting...My wedding dress has finally arrived! I'll be picking it up on Saturday morning at 10:30am sharp! I need to try it on in the shop, and then I'm taking it away to another shop to have the alterations done ready for the big day! I'm hoping that the girls' bags can be made out of the excess material on my dress!

Look out for wedding dress photos on Saturday night or Sunday at some point!

1 comment:

jayneH said...

I am so sorry about the miscarriage, having a baby will happen for you when the time is right, I had quite a few miscarriages and suffered a still birth but i finally got my three kids, so never lose hope Claire, on another note great to hear your wedding dress is ready for you, cant wait to have a sneak preveiw,
hugs jayne x