I hate arguing =(

Des and I had an argument a couple of hours ago. It was actually me shouting at him and he just ignored me which makes things a million times worse!

He moans at me when he cooks something and I don't eat it all. When I say moan, I mean he goes on and on and on about wasting food and how I should force myself to eat it and yadda yadda yadda.

Well since December, we've really struggled with money. We just about made ends meet before, but when Des lost his manager position we took a huge pay cut. He's since changed to working early shifts so has lost his shift premium too. That's about £500 a month we've lost. That £500 is the mortgage payment.

Anyway, the last time we did a proper food shop was before Christmas. We have been living on 8p super noodles and cheap 10p bread. We used the credit card to do a proper shop this week. We spent over £100 and bought loads of freezer stuff, tins, fruit & veg...The works. Most of it was own brand stuff, but we did buy decent toilet roll and a loaf of nice bread.

Last night we made ourselves a pizza. We bought 2 cheap pizza bases and added ham, cheese, green pepper, onion and herbs. We only used 1 pizza base, so the other needed wrapping up and putting in the fridge. For dinner we'd had ham salad wraps. Each pack of tortilla wraps comes in a pack of 8. We used 4 for our dinner, so there were 4 left. Des promised he had done this.

When I got up today, I went to get myself an apple out of the fridge and noticed that the remaining pizza base and the 4 wraps had just been thrown in the fridge without being wrapped up and they had gone hard. This is like a whole days food for 2 of us and it had to be thrown away.

I screamed at him and really went mad. He ignored me completely, too engrossed in playing on his x-box 360.

I'm not happy. A lot of the food we bought was fresh, so will start going off over the next couple of days. I could seriously cry about it.

So, we'll probably we waiting another 3+ months before doing a proper food shop.

We're actually struggling that much that I'm considering selling the car and cancelling my photography courses to get the money back. We have always lived comfortably and had whatever we wanted and needed. But since Christmas everything has gone wrong and I'm so annoyed that we used our savings to buy fun stuff like days out and a new x-box 360.

There's no point in me getting a second job because last time I did that, I was taxed so much more and ended up coming out with less than £50 a month extra, for working an additional 25 hours a week. Ugggghhhh. Life is so unfair sometimes.